"it looks like rain tonight, and thank god, because a clear sky just wouldn't feel right"

I think you find the little pieces of good in every day & keep going. I think you have to do that. Otherwise, the world is too dark of a place.

I don't understand why these things happen. You can talk them in circles for hours, analyze power dynamics and culture dynamics to death, talk about what it means to be a feminist, what society's definitions of masculinity imply, what responsibilities we owe each other. You can talk about the system and talk about justice, you can talk until there's nothing left to say because you've said it all and you're tired of discussing these things but you still have to because it hasn't gotten any better. Maybe in time. Maybe you keep fighting this fight because someone has to, and someday it will change things, and someday it will get better. You take the small steps and look at the big picture and hope against hope that it will matter.

Maybe you wake up in the morning, after having barely slept, a night not as bad, but close to, the night you had yourself two and a half years ago, and you look outside, at the sun rising, and the patches of snow, burning eyes and head aspin, and you take a breath. Because that's the only thing you can do, that is all you control. You give back what you can, you provide what you can. You look ahead. You slow down, for a moment, for a day, and then you keep going.



I don't know if that's the right thing to do, but it's what you have to do.